Owning

God help me
This is not me
When I look at them
When I look into their eyes
You know what I see
You know what I feel....
Judgment...
Anger....
Sadness....
Shame.......

Shame and sad to be me.......
making me feel never good enough


Hard to see love
Hard to be the love
when every other thought
When every other word
Is stupidity....masked in humor
plain old hurtful critism
Hard to remember....
the last loving,comforting words
thats told......


God help me
I am too far gone
I've been cut
I have been put down for far too long
Much too deep
Yeah its my fault
I own my share....
show me how to let go..........


Kuala Lumpur
December 22 2010