Heart

Paths crossed
Life unexpected
Hope floats
Strength stands
Its always been there
It gets louder
Its deeper
Its seen
Its felt

Looking in your eyes
I see no lies
In your arms I feel safe warmth
Those fear...won't scare
won't make me cry
Then....now...not ever.....

Thru all lives confusion
Thru all the hurt
For certain..
You always make me want to be a better person
To rise above all in the name of love
Always in my heart


Kuala Lumpur
February 28, 2011

Worthy

Sometimes the brain shuts
Sometimes I run out of words
When I think of you
When I see you

I am not even gonna fight....
Not even gonna claw....

I'll never be funny enough
I'll never be witty enough
I'll never be sexy enough
I'll never be that supermodel
I'll never be flirty enough

Worthy enough to be in your life
Worthy enough to stand next to you

Guess what
I am me...
For all its worth
I am worthy
Enough for me
Enough for the good Lord that created me
Enough for the ones that truly love and see me

Don't blame you
Don't hate you
There is a reason that I love
that reason just plain and simple is YOU
for everything that is YOU
for everything that is ME
thats all I have got to give

Kuala Lumpur
January 15 2011

Randomocity Zee

Just like everyone I know , I open my eyes say my prayers and gratitude. Go on with my day with God in my heart and smile on my face. I have to admit there is this random thought,feeling that just went running thru my head. Almost making me feel rather annoyed at myself. Hard pill swallow and to admit but I know I am not alone.

Could I really have thoughts,picture,prayers that love is and will be in my life that I deserve every thing that life has to offer. Hard to admit, but yeah there is that nagging that picks at you and wants you to hear it,trying hard to sabotage everything.

How do you really truly shut up that evil voice that wants you to believe that you are undeserving of what is good,whats blessings....

Lets start with really really really giving that little twit the middle finger shall we? =))

Don't You Stop Me

You'll never see
You'll never understand
No matter how hard I try
You try to sell me that crap
That I am not buying

I am done
A long time ago
And more so
Done trying to please
Done trying to make you love me

You and your stupidity
You and your passive aggressiveness
You hurt me with your words
You hurt me with your behaviour


I swear I'd rather die
than let it get the best of me

God as my strength
God as my witness
Whatever it takes
Moving thru my new beginning


Kuala Lumpur
January 2, 2011

As we say goodbye to 2010

"Through the pleasure and pain,
Through the sunshine and rain,
Baby, we keep on smilin "

As all of us reflect on the the year that was 2010, we smiled big , we laughed hard till we roll of the floor, some tears were shed for the losts, for the sadness we feel, we fall, we get up and dust ourselves off,lean on the shoulders of love and feel the strength again. Just like any good soldier. Most of all we can't and won't deny the strength that we find in love,compassion and empathy. That what makes us human,what makes us beautiful. Each and everyone of us.

Thru everything that life has brought us this year,we have to be grateful,thankful,we give it our all.

Hope love,faith still floats always......

Looking forward to what the future holds..more laughs,lots more love, blessings unimaginable, brighter than you'd might even imagine for yourselves
That only God, the universe can cook up for us
So CHEERS!!! Here is to the New Year
My brothers,my sisters,my hearts,my loves
Love and blessings always

Lets kick this =)

xoxxoxoxo
Zee

p.s who knows I may just see you at the concerts =) (winks)

In this Solitude

In this solitude
I find my strength
I find surrender
Acceptance
this is what it is........
but have the strength
there is hope
there is faith


I see that face
I see that smile
Tells me
to be strong
to be cool
I get that
I feel that
Eternally grateful

In this solitude........

I feel the strength..
to trust
to love
to hold on
with every fiber of my being

That my time here is not done yet
That days I am down but never out
Life will not get bring the worse out of me
and thats a promise.....
As God and love is my guiding light....

in this solitude.........



Kuala Lumpur
December 26 2010

Owning

God help me
This is not me
When I look at them
When I look into their eyes
You know what I see
You know what I feel....
Judgment...
Anger....
Sadness....
Shame.......

Shame and sad to be me.......
making me feel never good enough


Hard to see love
Hard to be the love
when every other thought
When every other word
Is stupidity....masked in humor
plain old hurtful critism
Hard to remember....
the last loving,comforting words
thats told......


God help me
I am too far gone
I've been cut
I have been put down for far too long
Much too deep
Yeah its my fault
I own my share....
show me how to let go..........


Kuala Lumpur
December 22 2010