Will This Ever Stop

 I am tired

 I am drained

 can't take this anymore

 Too may people

 To many games

  I don't want them

  I just want happiness

  I just want to hold and love you

  I can't fight for  your love

  Not gonna claw

  Its been a while

  Either you see me or you don't

  Either its love or its not

  You have to meet me half way

  I have made an ass of myself  for you long enough

  I can take this anymore

  I won't take it anymore

  Kuala Lumpur

  March 1, 2010

   

Let be

   I think of you
   I love you
   I care about you
   I want you


   If only you want me too.......


   Is that soo wrong??


   You don't see me
   The way  I see you


    Someday ..you will
    I pray..I surrender... 


    All I ever wanted is for you to be happy
    All I ever wanted is for me to be happy


    Whatever that maybe.......


   I'll let love be
   I'll just let dreams be
   just let the vision be
  
   The vision of love
   The vision of ever after
   Just let me be happy


    You;ll always have a special part in my heart
    I surrender...




  Kuala Lumpur
  February 29 2010

  


    

When all you can do....

Life isn't all bed of roses, peaches and cream all the time. It will throw you hard knocks and curve ball. ALL of us have gone thru it and have our crosses to bare. When this happens ,when devestation hits,depression and questions set in; all you can do is really put one feet in front of each other,dust yourself off,smile and count your blessing. Seeing the huge, to what seems to be minuscule. You do the best that you can and rise about the cards that you have been dealt  with.

Trust me I get that it is easier said than done, and it can be a slow and painful process but is the alternative choice a beautiful one?I highly doubt it.

I may not have a lot but what I do have  or maybe the fact is I do have a lot; for the people in my life, I am thankful for. I am blessed .I adore love and cherish every single thing.. every single one of my loves. For better or worse I carry that with me always.

Love and prayers going out the Chilean brothers and sisters, those affected by the earthquake or the tsunami. God's love and blessings always.

http://mashable.com/2010/02/27/chile-relief/

Takkan Ku Ratapi/ No Tears

Takkan Ku ratapi
Sayangku padamu

 Takkan ku ratapi
 Kau tiada disisku

Takkan ku ratapi
Begini diriku
Begini takdirku
Begini hidupku

Semuanya ditangan yang  Esa
Takkan ku ratapi segalanya
Aku  akan redha
Aku berdiri tegak
aku akan bergerak
aku akan berjaya
Aku tetap hidup
Aku tetap bernyawa


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(translation)

No Tears

Not shedding a tear
Thinking how much I love you

Not shedding a tear
thinking that you  are not by my side

Not shedding a tear
Looking at my life
This is all fated

Its all in the hands of God

Not shedding a tear
No regrets
I'll accept it
I stand tall
I stand strong
Despite everything

I'm still breathing
I'm still living
I'll soar even higher



February 26 2010
Kuala Lumpur

Free

I can't look at you
I can't  talk to you
Why?

Every other word is critism
Every other word is contempt
Don't tell me I don't try and talk to you
You just don't wanna hear
You just don't wanna know

I can't dress properly
I don't believe everything that you do
I don't have sense of humor
I am the one that "needs to be taught  a lesson"
How old do you think I am?

 When was the last loving word you said?
 You know what?
 I can't even remember
 Don't sit there and pass judgement
 Don't sit there and put it all on me

I know
I am letting go
I am saying my forgiveness
I'll keep on for my sake
Cuz being angry at you
Hating you
Being constantly angry at you
Is not doing me any good


February 26 2010
Kuala Lumpur

Belong

I belong far away from here
Where spirits soar
Wings spread
Fear subsides
Love and acceptance rule

I belong where no question lies,
Of my humanity, believes, of myself!

I belong in your arms
In your heart
Where I feel peace
Where I feel contentment
Where I see nothing but beauty
That beautiful face
Your beautiful eyes
Your beautiful smile
Your beautiful heart and spirit
Where we embrace all of our beauty and all our imperfections

I belong where I feel nothing but strength and courage
That’s where God lies
That’s where home is
That’s where my heart is

Love Dichotomy

I am blessed the day you came into my life
I am cursed the day you came into my life

I love that I love you
I hate that I love you

You see me
You don't see me
You know me
You don't know me

I need this to change
I need to move on
but I don't know how
Can't imagine my life without you
Its lfe without love
its life without music

After all these year
Its still there
Its never gone
Even after you left
Even after I thought I'd let you go into her arms
Like that love that never dies
Like that pain that would never go away

I was fine
Wish you hadn't shown up at my doorstep again
Looking the way you do
Doing the things you do
Saying the things you say

I am holding on to reality
You bring back the love and dream

What the hell am I to do?
You can't do this to me


Kuala Lumpur
February 24, 2009