For The Last Time

Let go,
Tears,
Anger,
Hurtful behavior,words
They are there,
They may chip away at you,
But you are better than believing that crap thrown at you,
Letting it tear you down
Breaking you,

I refuse to let you do that to yourself,
You may not be perfect,
You've been called names,
Told a million times of whats wrong with you,
How you ought to be,
You are human,
You are allowed to be imperfect,
But know this.......
You are beautiful,
soul and spirit,
Just remember that......

Dust yourself off
Tell yourself
I am here..
I am who I am
I am a good person,
You want to kick me
Maybe you did,
But I rise up.

You lost me,
You are never going to win....
I choose ME
In the name of God and everything that is holy,
I choose love and I choose ME
You can kiss me GOODBYE
I am done,
I am done,
I am done,


Kuala Lumpur
February 19 2014

Breaking Down

Broke down,
Its not about you..
But somehow that ego of yours,
Made it about you...
Manage to criticize and chip away at my being,
That I don't believe , dress and do things to way you do,
What a bad person I am,

You wonder why I can't talk to you....
I don't feel safe,
Your love...
The one that you claim to have...
They feel conditional,
Your love is conditional,

When I look at you,
Most of the time I think,
I do not want to be like you,
Not this version of you,

I was never good enough then,
I am still less then to you now,


If I am mad....
Hell I am......This shit is done...
Whats stopping me?
I don't even know where to start.
Even if I did....
My soul would stop me...

Damn conscience!!!!
God and faith stopped me..
And still.... I am the bad one....
You can't even remember what I said or did five minutes ago....

If you only knew
the raw words I wish I could say to you,
You don't even really want to hear and see me,
and THAT'S THE TRUTH!


Kuala Lumpur
February 17, 2014

My Unconditional

Thinking of you,
Always thinking of you
Couldn't be bothered ..
Bothered to tell my heart...
Bothered to tell my mind..
Shut it off!!
Not even going to....
Never made sense... probably never will
But that's OK
I have surrendered to that.

Don't take me for naive,
Don't take me for stupid,
Don't take be for silly,
I know imperfections.....
but,,, in those imperfections
you were always my unconditional,
Always my guiding light,
making me ,
telling me,
wanting me,
Seek and be that better version of you,
as YOU yourself seek that better version of you

There will always be darkness,
You are that light,
You are that rock,
In your arms,
I feel love,
In that heart that millions seek,
In that heart that millions cares,
I am that corner space,
Where I still feel the safest,
I feel my wings,
I feel my joy,
Where I do feel my peace,
I just do.

In the seen or the unseen imperfections,
You are my unconditional,
Eternally will be.

Kuala Lumpur
February 6,2014

Leo Light

You make me feel like I am something,
That I might just be someone special,
even for few path crossing moments through out the years
For making me believe in everything that is love,
that is good,
that is strong,
I realize, I am insignificant
On the scale of things..I know who I am...
A drop.. a small tiny insignificant drop....
Tho... I know I am worthy....
For those feelings
For those moments
For lessons learned
I am eternally grateful
Thank you
Love you

Kuala Lumpur
November 1, 2013

Heartbeat

Got my head on right,
My heart is in the right place,
You may be my heart,
Not denying you have it,
It may be you are my world,
Quite sure it does not revolve around you,
Not a fool.....

I want you to know,
Don't you forget,
My love,
My gratitude,
For reasons known,
For reasons unknown,
Paths collided,
Paths crossed,
Feels like side by side this journey.....
Together...
Till God says it ends.....
Glued......tattooed......

Kuala Lumpur
September 30, 2013

Life's Melody

Between laughter and tears,
Hate and gratitude,
Between confusion and clarity.
Nothing much...
Its whats mine,
Its whats given,
Its whats destined,
Alhamdulillah......

Promise,
I'll stay in love,
I'll stay in gratitude,
I trust in my moment of weakness,
You'd be there.

Don't know whats next,
I can't see beyond today,
Only you do,
I don 't expect to to tell me.
I know this is all somehow a preperation,
For something.....
Just give me love,
Just give me strength,
Just give me the wisdom.

All I know,
All I pray,
You will always be there
My heart,
My love,
My strength,
My haven....


Kuala Lumpur
September 22, 2013

Can We Just Get Along?

Dear brain that over thinks and over analyzes,
Dear heart that feels and love,
I know you know,
You are smart,
You love God,
You have faith.
Part of you is filled with hope
I know you believe.

Heart....
I know you are tired,
I know parts are bleeding,
It will heal,
I know you want to be better,
I know you want to do better,
You know its out there,
You know your time is coming again...

It hurts..sure,
Its been too long,
I know you need to breathe,
I know you can,
You have......
Lift that head higher,
(sure you have short neck..but stretch it would you??)
Take that deep breathe.....

I know you wonder..
You don't see that light....

Trust..
Believe...
Sooner or later .. baby,
Sooner or later,,,
You got this......
I LOVE YOU

Can you two please get along?

July 13, 2013
Kuala Lumpur