Hand Heart Wash Clean

Hand Heart Wash Clean

I lost a friendship
Over a smiley face
On your ex's facebook......
We were friends
When I did not feel it was directed
negatively at you....


You don't wanna listen to explaination
You don't wanna accept explaination
You don't wanna see and accept when I ask
How can I make it better

Nothing can I do
Nothing I can say
I am hurt
I am sad
But my conscience is cleared
God knows why heart
maybe our time has come
With you slamming that door on me
someone that truly loves, gets gets and understanding
is meant to fill that spot


Kuala Lumpur
October 11, 2011

Voice

Voice of love
Voice of reason
You'd be loud
You'd be strong
You hold on

Even if I had moments of not believing
You give me a reasons to believe....
Reasons to give up
Reason to give that perpetual middle finger to negativity

Thank you God
For that love
For sending me that strength
For that faith
The light in my life
The best thing that happen to me
Even if days that I do feel that I doubt you
But the reality is hard for me to..
I don't ..
I love
I trust
I believe
in me
in you
in God
in whatever is that is good.......


Kuala Lumpur
September 9, 2011

What I Want

I tell you what I want
To be that shoulder
Knowing that I am not stupid
Knowing that I am not naive
To know that you are not you are not faking it,
For you to see me as me
as good person that I am
I just want to see,want to know the real you

Baby ...
You are not up there
And I am not down here
If we can 't meet each other half way
God help me,
Help me understand
If it needs to be over
Shouldn't it be over
But..Its not

I'd much rather let you go ..
in love
than be this way...
Would I ever know the truth
You've been in my life for far too long
for it to be this way
For me to feel this way

My love eternal
patience tested
Till the last drop


Kuala Lumpur
August 24, 2011

Thank You

Dear God I thank you
I thank you for this screwed up life you have given me
I thank you

I was not suppose to be born
but here I am anyways...
broken inside
I thank you

You send me them
I live in love
I am belittled
I am different
I am weird
They make me feel small
They don't see me
They don't respect me
I am not me....
and they expect me to love and respect them
Thank you God


Thank you for the hurt
Thank you for the anger
Thank you for the sadness,tears
Thank you for the frustration

Thank you for sending me to my love and joy and taking it back from me
Thank you for sending me, and making me feel the love and only to be told I can never have it... only in my dreams

Thank you
And now little 'ol me is expected to hold on to love faith and hope
when all I am surrounded with is chains and limitations
Thank you

Now you can have back this life you have given me
I thank you

Kuala Lumpur
August 17, 2011

The Only Thing Thats Real

Dear real love,
In this rumble,
In this solitude
I thank you

I am letting you know
I am here
I am ready
Ready to surrender
Ready to receive
What is real
what that is love
what that is understanding,compassionate and nuturing


I am love
I surround myself with love
I am worthy
Anything less than joyful
Anything less that oness with you my higher power
Does not belong here

God... I return that to you


Kuala Lumpur
August 6, 2011

In my soul

With every fiber of my being
With every fiber of my soul
I feel hope
I feel strength

With every fiber of my being
With every fiber of my soul
I do feel blessed
Moments of love wraps me
Warms my heart
Warms my soul

I can never deny that
I can never push that away
Thats what feeds me
Thats what gives me joy
How can it not be part of me?
It forever will be



Kuala Lumpur
July 12, 2011

All On You Not Me

I ask for love
I ask for mercy
I ask for compassion
I ask for peace
That is all


Make me smile
Make me smirk
Go ahead
take me for weak
take me for stupid
go ahead
Underestimate me
lets see who is gonna have the last laugh

Your thoughts
Your responsibility
Its not on me
Its on you..

I just have to remember to find that love and strength in me, for me
Remember I am worth it
Everything wonderful, beautiful,great and blessed that live has to offer me


I am walking away
Not buying your shit


Kuala Lumpur
July 12, 2011