Still

In this still
The still of not knowing
In the not knowingness
I trust that you do
I will know
It will come
It will be revealed
That I will not be forsaken
There will be love
There will be abundance
I am worthy of it


Kuala Lumpur
May 11,2012

Ms Sweetypie Done

Don't blame me if a small part of me is done being "Ms Sweetypie"
and that it has not gotten me anything but being kicked to the ground...
but alas I can only be me ..whatever that maybe ...
and I do live with God and my conscience...
tho at this very moment,
truth be told,
there is a part of me that is so hugely done...


Kuala Lumpur
May 10, 2011

Be Gone

You wonder why I am mad
You wonder why I am acting bitchy
Drowning in sadness

You cut me down
You dismiss me
You insult me
You tell me I am nobody
I can't make it on my own
You don't care
You don't love
You would deny how
Your words have hurt me
I am not fighting for your love anymore


But all I can do is swallow them
because you are blood
I am not made like you
I promise myself
As God as my witness
I am not you
but you keep spewing hurt
You love chipping me into pieces
and I feel that
I see that

God I ask for your love
I ask for your mercy
Help me let go
It has to be better
It has to feel better
show me what you would have me do

Kuala Lumpur
May 4 , 2011